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We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned,

so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.

Joseph Campbell

Life doesn’t always go as planned. Ask my dad; he didn’t really expect to be wishing for a new liver for Christmas. I keep telling him it’s because he already has everything else he could ever need, so why not go out on a limb! I don’t really talk or post about it a lot because really it is what it is, we can’t change it. But I’ve already been tested and my liver seems to be in good working order.

I set 3 goals at the beginning of this year and I can say I have already accomplished all 3; I’d like to kick ass in Economics as well. If I look at it this way I have 22 weeks of actual school left. Then I guess I’ll be wicked smart! But with being wicked smart should come be wicked happy!

I found this quote recently and I realized we all hold on to pain, why? It’s PAIN, it hurts, makes us sad, bitter and keeps us from living the happy life we’re all entitled.

Let go. Why do you cling to pain? There is nothing
 you can do about the wrongs of yesterday. It is
 not yours to judge. Why hold on to the very thing 
which keeps you from hope and love?

I try to take all my problems and when I run leave them on the pavement. But there have been times when I can’t do that. I was holding on to things, for WAY too long. Or I thought I was letting go and in the end I would let things consume me again. Why? I don’t like to be bitter and grumpy (and when you’re generally happy people notice). So I took that quote and wrote down those things that caused me pain and took them out to my BBQ and with a bottle of wine LET IT GO! I woke up the next day feeling as if a weight had been lifted. I was carrying so much burden of pain that was caused by OTHER people and yet I was the one who was suffering.

So boys and girls what did I learn? 1. Soaking paper in lighter fluid makes a REALLY big flame and pouring wine on it to try and kill it only makes it bigger! 2. There is only one person you truly have to live with your entire life, YOURSELF! 3. Always remember to make that person happy, I shouldn’t have to tell you that, but then again I had to remind myself of that!

In other news, I put in a good 6 mile run today, but AGAIN my Nike+ app crashed when I tried to upload it again. Did 13:30 miles, which for me was a great pace. I didn’t run out of steam before I ran out of water or good music so I call that a WIN! I’m trying to finish my project I’m doing with my race bibs and medals but I can’t find the one from the ½ marathon, seriously the MOST important one and I can’t remember the safe place I put it! I’ll find it and when I do, hopefully I’ll have it done shortly after that. I have no races for September (there is one in 2 weeks, maybe I’ll run it) and I’d like to find a 10k in October. Then November 4^th is the ½ marathon which I’m sure I’ll see everyone I know there!!

Daily Mantra: "There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world; it’s the beginning of a new life."