We must be willing to let
go of the life we have planned,
so as to accept the life
that is waiting for us.
Joseph Campbell
Life doesn’t always go as
planned. Ask my dad; he didn’t really expect to be wishing for a new liver for
Christmas. I keep telling him it’s because he already has everything else he
could ever need, so why not go out on a limb! I don’t really talk or post about
it a lot because really it is what it is, we can’t change it. But I’ve already
been tested and my liver seems to be in good working order.
I set 3 goals at the
beginning of this year and I can say I have already accomplished all 3; I’d
like to kick ass in Economics as well. If I look at it this way I have 22 weeks
of actual school left. Then I guess I’ll be wicked smart! But with being wicked
smart should come be wicked happy!
I found this quote recently
and I realized we all hold on to pain, why? It’s PAIN, it hurts, makes us sad,
bitter and keeps us from living the happy life we’re all entitled.
Let go. Why do you cling to
pain? There is nothing
you can do about the wrongs of yesterday. It is
not
yours to judge. Why hold on to the very thing
which keeps you from hope and
love?
I try to take all my
problems and when I run leave them on the pavement. But there have been times
when I can’t do that. I was holding on to things, for WAY too long. Or I
thought I was letting go and in the end I would let things consume me again.
Why? I don’t like to be bitter and grumpy (and when you’re generally happy
people notice). So I took that quote and wrote down those things that caused me
pain and took them out to my BBQ and with a bottle of wine LET IT GO! I woke up
the next day feeling as if a weight had been lifted. I was carrying so much
burden of pain that was caused by OTHER people and yet I was the one who was
suffering.
So boys and girls what did I
learn? 1. Soaking paper in lighter fluid makes a REALLY big flame and pouring
wine on it to try and kill it only makes it bigger! 2. There is only one person
you truly have to live with your entire life, YOURSELF! 3. Always remember to
make that person happy, I shouldn’t have to tell you that, but then again I had
to remind myself of that!
In other news, I put in a good
6 mile run today, but AGAIN my Nike+ app crashed when I tried to upload it
again. Did 13:30 miles, which for me was a great pace. I didn’t run out of
steam before I ran out of water or good music so I call that a WIN! I’m trying
to finish my project I’m doing with my race bibs and medals but I can’t find
the one from the ½ marathon, seriously the MOST important one and I can’t
remember the safe place I put it! I’ll find it and when I do, hopefully I’ll
have it done shortly after that. I have no races for September (there is one in
2 weeks, maybe I’ll run it) and I’d like to find a 10k in October. Then
November 4th is the ½ marathon which I’m sure I’ll see everyone I
know there!!
Daily Mantra: "There
are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave
behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world; it’s the
beginning of a new life."
