Dear Running,
I feel like we need to talk. It’s been a rough year for us.
You were there but I didn’t appreciate you the way I should of. I lost my
passion for you. And then someone came along and I thought it would help me
find my way back to you. It didn’t. It made me resent you. I didn’t think I was
good enough to be with you anymore. I forgot why I started running and only saw
that I was slow and the person who was supposed to support me only made me feel
bad about the effort. And then I figured out that something needed to change. I
was going to need to break up with one of you. And so now I ask you for a
second chance to be a permanent prominent place in my life. I let the negative
person go and thought I would miss them, but I still missed you. A lot! So I
think we should start over. This time, with better results. Better stride,
better times and most of all a better attitude over all. I want to do this for
me. I want to remember running and smiling because I was having fun. I may not
ever be the fastest person out there but I will always cross the finish line
and know that I did something to better myself. In a way letting go of the
negative “support” (tough love I think is what it was called) allowed me to
have the greatest support someone can have. The support of myself. And so now I’m
going to lace up my sneakers, fire up the running app and turn on some good
music and just run, not fast, not far, not for anyone else but me. I’m glad we had this talk and I can’t wait to
see where our relationship goes in the future.
Yours for miles and miles,
Erin
